Two Inches Short

2006-01-12T21:07:00.000-08:00

I sometimes find myself thinking if I made the right decision of moving here in the US. During these times, I sort of think how things could have been different if I were in the Philippines.

Perhaps I would probably be spending my time with KEM, my kada, my high school friends, even my dad. Though spending time with dad, usually translates to him visiting me in Manila once a month or once every two months and us going out for a couple of days only. I miss that though. Even though how little time we got to spend together.

I am sure that things would be a little less complicated. All I have to do is go to school and worry where the next gmick my friends and I will be going. And the occasional struggles that taking Chemical Engineering in UP entails: ChE majors, ES 11, ES 12, ES 1 (I guess ES 1 only applies to handful of people like me, I just do not like the subject!). But I know that with the help of a few friends (you know who you are), these subjects would have been bearable for me.

But as I was watching the tube a few minutes ago, it finally hit me. I could not remember what I was watching, but one of the people there gives an advice to his or her friend (I am really not sure who the people were, and if that person was a he or a she. I guess I was channel surfing that time and happened to pass by that scene.). Anyhow, that person’s line goes: “Do whatever make you happy. Go wherever life takes you.” Those were not the exact lines but I hope I got the message across.

I am here because traveling makes me happy. I am here to realize a dream that I have always wanted. And even though how much I miss my friends and family way back home, I know that they will be there when I come back. I know for sure that they are with me everyday and that I am with them as well. But for now, all that matter is that I’m doing steps, baby steps perhaps, in achieving what each and everyone one of us strive to find in life: true happiness.

Even though I am two inches short, I will not give up. And if I fail, the mere fact that I tried would be enough to put a smile in my face as I watch the sunset while the music fades. This is the new me.

It's still ME.. Sort of..

Two Inches Short